In a time when we hear of so many negative things in the news and the papers every day, it is refreshing not only to hear, but be a part of a beautiful Ayahuasca Healing transformation of two people’s lives, individually and as a couple. Not only did they have great change but through their experiences the depth of healing that came my way was also surprising, unexpected and amazing. They were a couple that were dealing with patterns of past childhood abuse mentally, emotionally and sexually that ravaged Richelle’s life for a lifetime. Their marriage was broken and drifting in different directions feeling there was no hope and that if the events continued to ensue that Richelle felt her life slipping from her. When Richelle first came there was much fear and apprehension it was thought by me, that with confidence in the shamans, Ayahuasca Healing and Huachuma that there would be breakthroughs but nothing prepared me for the intense time we all spent together and breakthroughs beyond what I could have perceived on many levels. Over the course of 35 days there were many landscapes of emotions that were traversed. Fear, resentment, anger, judgment, sadness, feeling deceived, remorse later changing to love, forgiveness, laughter, non-judgment, happiness and hope. Probably for me to be a witness to and a part of the events that transpired, was a most intense and a most extreme education. John came to Iquitos for about a week in the middle of the thirty-five days with the intention to end his marriage. But in the end through their experiences with loving intentions the result is clearly displayed in the photo above. They are a wonderful couple back together with a renewed life. They keep growing closer and ayahuasca healing every day and they have become close friends of our family. Here are in their own words an expression of their experiences and feelings of their time in the jungle.
“Even writing a book could not give a glimpse of what I experienced at Kawsay. As an almost walking dead person, I had turned so many ways searching for help. Resources dwindling, I knew I did not have the energy nor finances to look much further. The deadness I felt inside had been with me since childhood and I just could not shake it off. With the help of Ayahuasca, Huachuma, the support of the curaderos. and William’s amazing insightful counseling, the light began to push itself into the dark controlled spaces within my spirit and physical body. Repressed fear began to course through and beg for expression while exiting my body during my Ayahuasca and Huachuma ceremonies. Finally a wail ripped out of my chest as my body remembered the sexual molestation that I suffered and repressed as a young child. So long I suspected it, but thought it only a trick of my mind trying to create a reason for my never ending depression. In an instant, I understood my general mistrust of men and my unreasonable resentment of authority. Even though other grave traumas occurred in my life and were presently developing, this was a positive key factor in curing all. Soon I felt able to forgive my life. I had always despised myself and hoped some event would take me out of my life permanently. But crying tears of self forgiveness, I began to realize this as the point at which I could begin appreciating all of the many blessings in my life. After that session, I went into a ceremony where I experienced true self love – a feat I had never been able to master before. I announced to everyone there that the most important person in the world loved me and that person was me. At that moment, I knew that now, I could truly begin to love others as well. These profound self realizations and I would call them self actualizations and even more occurred at my stay at Kawsay. A life time of psychotherapy could not closely approach what I experienced at Kawsay. I would highly recommend Kawsay Retreat to anyone. What sets it apart is the small group size and the amount of care and support you receive. Staying at Kawsay, you get to experience the true spirit of the Amazon Jungle versus being only miles away from the congested city of Iquitos like so many other retreats are.”–RICHELLE PARKER
“I recently spent a week Kawsay Ayahuasca Retreat. This was probably the most profound week that I spent in my life. I have a very busy business life serving as CEO of a small software and consulting company. However, I neglected other important parts of my life such as my wife of 35 years. Our marriage was rapidly deteriorating; we had totally lost our physical passion and emotional intimacy for each other. In my view, my wife had become so self-centered and did not care about me any more. I had also become insensitive and was also losing interest in our relationship. We had reached a point where neither one of us were happy. I let my wife go to Kawsay to discover where she wanted to go with her life and to heal from a broken marriage. After a week, she called me and said that I had to go there and be with her and that the time there would provide great insight to both of us. I hesitated at first, but then I decided we needed this opportunity together to decide our future. I booked my one week trip to Peru. William and my wife met me at the airport. My wife, seemed so different. She looked in my eyes and I felt such a love that I had not seen in the last 30 years. We did two Ayahuasca and two San Pedro ceremonies together where I discovered, she is my destiny. I felt such love and passion for her, and saw her as a beautiful being of light. It seemed that sensitivity had grown from zero to 100 over night. At one of the San Pedro ceremonies, she was going through intense emotional processing. I stayed by her side and was truly there for her in her time of need. Our emotional intimacy grew to a level we had never known. This short week in Peru made so many changes in me that it is difficult to describe. Now that we have returned to our normal lives, our love has done nothing but grow. We are planning another trip to Kawsay in the near future. In fact, we plan on recommitting ourselves to each other through a ceremonial marriage, which we want to have in Peru. This experience could never have been possible without the care and support that we received from William and the Kawsay Shamans. This week in the Amazon Jungle, without phone, Internet or even electricity was truly life changing and allowed me to make changes and set priorities in my life that would have been impossible without this experience. I highly recommend Kawsay to any one who wants to make profound changes in their life.”-JOHN PARKER
We are blessed in this time to have the opportunity for modern man to be able to experience the healing modalities of the “primitive” shamanic healing arts. The experiences of John and Richelle is a testament to what is possible within the realm of ayahuasca healing with Ayahuasca and Huachuma especially in the hands of the shamans that have dedicated their lives to helping and healing our fellow man, always in service for the greater good of all.